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so basically my dad is back from rehab and i guess our family is starting to get a long more, my brother is in the position i was in a couple months ago where he doesnt want anything to do with him hates to talk to him wont listen to him etc..but at this point im just like whatever im not going to get anywhere treatin him like shit because my mom just gets pised at me so i have been pretty nice to him lately and he is nicer to me. i went to that seminar with my mom n brother n dad and wow it was really touching like every word the lady said was so true and i could relate to it. it really helped me to realize that its not totally my dads fault for the disease.
me n mark are totally not together and although i still care about him a lot i dont want a part of it anymore. i told him that he can go to get help or he can forget about me period. i somewhat talked to him and he agreed tog et help so i guess well see where it goes from there. i learned from the lady at the seminar that in order to be healthy u need to think about yourself and as selfish as it sounds i think its true. you cant be worrying about what other people are doing and followin them around and listeing to them. you do your own thing. you get your consequences, your results. but everything is you. i learned that if you care more about your self and your feelings more than others it helps to make you a better person. i am me. and i want to live to be 101 years old and in order to do this i want to stay healthy.
i went out all weekend though =) i went to the biggest keg in the world lol and drank and got into a fight with some asshole and then i started fights with all these guys who were prtoecting me cuz im stupid and get pissed if a guy is an asshole (its not right thought) and i wanted an apology ..i went with sylwia alaina and ally fodale and alexa and brandin were there and mark it was relaly awkward..i didint go home till 3 tho then i had work yearturday at 6 till 10 i am even more stupid cuz i took a xanax cuz i was shaky and it made me tired then i was pissed after work so i went out till 2 and had to wake up early this morning for work meeting at 8 now im just tired
a month left of school wow i dont eeven know what i am going to do after high school. i feel like i want next yr to be free and no worries but i kno i am goig to have a lot of pressure on myself. so i wanted to become a teacher or soemone who works with kids and now i might want to be a physcians nurse or even a pscyiatrist. i really like working with people and helping people with their problems. i am taking contacts next year but i dont know if thats what i want to do anymore -the money the job openings. i dont know where i want to go to college or worry about that kind of stuff
some girl comes up to me the other day and shes like what classes are you taking over the summe rand im like what r u talking about and shes like the college classes your taking them arent you? im thinking yea right its my summer vaca i hate school why wud i wanna waste my summer on it.. but now i am actually thinking i should take classes..im not going to cuz i dont think u cant anymore but that wud be a good headstart at least...
wlel thats all for now leave me comments
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[18 Feb 2005|10:59am] |
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im in a good mood wow hasnt happened to often lol... break has been broken lmao yea its been pretty gay past cple days ive had to work n havent really gotten to do much..wed was good tho i went to marks we talked. chatted. n yeah ;) hung out. watched a movie. then tone came over later. watched some of taxi. then left. went to jeffs party. kinda drank :/ lol. (had to work the next day). but then the whole night just shifted and everythin was crazy....................................... :x :/
then went home slept went to work talked to mark didnt do nethin last night too tired.. duane came over to get his hat. we hung out a lil even tho i was in my pajamas lol oh well. we talked some. i miss my duane! lol i havent seen/talked to him in forever. hes goin to AZ today n he needed his hat he might get me one tho if he can find one :) he betterrr but yea he got to me my mom n dad and my mo mwas in her pajamas too lol yea thats my house for ya lol
so yea today idk what im doin for sure..i think im goin to get myu nails done then go to marks or hangout with him for a lil then at 4 im goin with gina shes gon help me.. TOMORROWS THE BIG DAY!!!! ahhhhhh lol
n + igotta hangout with my catsas soo gurls saturday night? we can come over here maybe order pizza at 630 u kno the works lmao oh and we can have a chochlate cake lmaoooooo jk botu the cake but yea ill ttu gurlies about it..maybe we can go to the movies or sumthin but i wanaa do sumthing!!! for sure
k wel i gotta b/d my hair...
-x0x-
dont u love it when u fall in love
cuz u kno some 1 cares about you like u care about them
i do cuz im in love with you:-*
^^that was marks away msg b4
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whata crappy valentines :/ heartbroken once again last night but i jsut keep coming bak for more does this mean im in love??
well..hes tryin to make it up to me tomorrow is "our" valentines just for us and no one else he says hes not hangin with his friends or nethin just me to show me that he cares and all this lets see if it will come true....
dindt go to sleep til late i was sad =( but w/e then i had to work i was so tired didnt do nethin else eother thatn that...
well neways
20 Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do 1. Know how to make you smile when you are down. 2. Come up behind you and put his arms around you. 3. His hands always find yours. 4. Be cute when he really wants something. 5. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork. 6. Be funny, but know how to be serious. 7. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious. 8. Be patient when you take forever to get ready. 9. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts. 10. Smile a lot. 11. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you. 12. Appreciate you. 13. Drive 5 hours just to see you for one hour 14. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you leave each other, even when his friends are watching. 15. Sing, even if he can't. 16. Be nice to your friends. 17. Stare at you. 18. Call for no reason. 19. Show you off to his friends. 20. Lets you know he really loves you.
thats all for now....
-x0x-
mark <3 :/
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[06 Feb 2005|01:16pm] |
lmao i was just readin my user info and the like first few choices for my interests are alchohol .. and moreee .. bacardi
lol do i sound like im an alchoholic or what lmao wow
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took this from andreas lj :D
1). YOUR PORN STAR NAME - (NAME OF FIRST PET + STREET YOU LIVE ON): Scooter Cedargroce 2). YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME - (GRANDMOTHER'S FIRST NAME + FAVORITE SNACK FOOD): Eunice Peanut butter Crackers :P 3). YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME - (FIRST OBJECT YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT + FAVORITE RESTAURANT): Phone Uncle Nicks 4). YOUR FOREIGN NAME - (FAVORITE SPICE GIRL + LAST FOREIGN VACATION SPOT): Sporty Florida (lmao i kno not foreign but eh i dont go newhere) 5). YOUR SOCIALITE NAME - (SILLIEST CHILDHOOD NICKNAME + FIRST TOWN WHERE YOU PARTIED): Peanut Shelby Township 6). YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME - (FIRST INITIAL + FIRST THREE LETTERS OF YOUR LAST NAME): S. Kle 7). YOUR DETECTIVE NAME - (FAVORITE ANIMAL + NAME OF HIGH SCHOOL): Kitty Utica 9). YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME - (MIDDLE NAME + STREET WHERE YOU FIRST LIVED): Rose Cedargrove 10). YOUR ROCK STAR NAME - (FAVORITE CANDY + FAVORITE MUSICIAN'S LAST NAME): Jolly Rancher Usher 11). YOUR "POPULAR" NAME - (FAVORITE CELEBRITY'S FIRST NAME + BEST FRIEND'S STREET NAME): Chad Shelbyshire Chad Brookside Lane Chad Pearl Chad Baytree (?)..etc etc 12). YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME - (NAME OF [OPPOSITE SEX] FRIEND + CELL PHONE COMPANY YOU USE): Duane Sprint
and another...
1)Name the Last Three Things You Have Bought: Victoria secret underwear bra and shoes :P 2)Name Three Drinks You Regularly Drink: water propell hard liquor lol jk 3)Last Time You Cried? today :( 4)What's In Your CD Player? Burned CD 5)What's Under Your Bed? news to me 6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today? 530 7)Current Hair? up messy very messy 8)Current Clothes? scrubbin-jeans wife beater blue hoddie 9)Current Desktop Picture ? hp something 10)Current Worry? my boyfriend 11)Current Hate? homeword 12)Favorite Places To Be? out with friends 13)Least Favorite Place? school soemtimes home 14)If You Could Play An Instrument? idk 15)Favorite Colors? Pink 16)How Tall Are You? 5'3"1/2 17) Favorite expression? diff 18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: i dont kno 19)Favorite Day(s)? my birthday i suppose christmas new years 20)Where Would You Like To Go? like on a cruise or sumthing 21)Where do you want to live when you get married? noclue 22)Favorite food?: greek food? 23)Color of most clothes you own: pink blue 24)Number of pillows you sleep with? 3 plus my schooshy ones :P 25)What do you wear when you go to sleep?: sweatpants sweatshirt or cute VS matching set 26)What were you doing 12AM last night: wish on phone with mark :[ but prolly sleeping 27)How old will you be in 10 yrs: 26 28)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: hopefully workin and rich filthy rich n m,arried to a hot guy with a nice body and lots of money lmao i wish 29)Have you ever had braces? Yes 30)Are you paranoid?! omg yea seomtimes 31)Do you burn or tan? lmao well im burnt now but usually in the sun i tan 32)What is the brand of your wallet? if i had a wallet id tell ya 33)First piercing/tattoo? ears 34)First enemy? hmmm..everyone loves shelbie lmao jk erin garden prolly she hated me in 6th grade idk why lol 35)Last person you yelled at? my mother 37)Last thing you ate? chicken dish thing my mom made
ps look at my mood lmaoo when i went to click to find one i was think what kinda mod am i in then i said im full and wondered if they had it and they do hahahah its sooo cute
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i sware today seemed like the longest day ever ive got this headache and it wont go away its like pounding and when people talki its annoying..
today on the bus steve comes to me n caroline im like ow my head is like in vibration steve jsut looks at me puzzled liek wtf r ut alkin about lol
yesturady was elvirs birthday i forgot :/ he turned 17 :0
man o man i wishi was going on vacation i need it so bad and valentines day argh i got no idea wat to get for my love :P
had my math quiz today mr lacombe was in a bad mood again but i have a feeling i did good on my math test im sorry ..considering the gurl next to me got a 32 outa 34 on the quiz b4 ..i copied off of her so lets hope i did good i got an english quiz tomorrow on medieval times and carolines right it is boring and hard and complicated oh yanas coming to carolines today they said they might pick me up i miss yana havent seen her in a while... i really want UNCLE NICKS for dinner like really i want grape leaves yum ive been craving them like crazy idk why earlier i made my mom mad shes like shelbie no uncle nicks i started laughin my ass off just the way she said it
well well that will be all for now my mother said that im giving her a headache typing...
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[01 Feb 2005|08:01pm] |
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yepp just sittin here... no ones home at my house except me. i kno what it feels like now christa. but im actually enjoyin it bc im never home alone.
just read katrinas lj the fill it out thing lmao i got some laughs outta that one ha i miss u kat.
we all have to hangout soon i miss you guys soo much
its like we always say well hangout then never do. :/
So yea i got hw to do but like usual im not doing it. stayed home yesturday. didnt feel like going to school. gots a math english n something else test tom.
joy.
im patiently waiting to get my license. i can anyday now im have my mom call tomorrow i think. i almost got a job at abercrombie or well i guess i still can. carolines bros ex gf works there and got my name n number..castin thing was today but i didnt go ...maybe next week...
i watched the movie white castle yesturday since i stayed home. it was kinda dumb but i needed a laugh and it made me laugh so i enjoyed it. lol. matt tol me it was the dumbest most worthless movie the only good part was the boobies. lol im like wooo hoo lol.. acutally now that i think about it ..it was really dumb..they get the cheetah high and then the cheetah rides them both somewhere lmao? what kidna movie is that
damn mr lacombe was in a bad mood today..couldnt enjoy his class and his nose really got to me today :/ like i wanan just say to him GET A NOSE JOB YOULL BE THE HOTTESt GUY IN THE WORLD ..but idk if hes like sensitive to that so i kept my mouth closed :P
WeLl tHatS alL i GoTs FoR nOw...
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ps i love mark :P
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[27 Jan 2005|07:05pm] |
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1.name: Shelbie 2. single or taken: taken :P 3. sex: girl 4. birthday: december 30 5. sign: capricorn 6. siblings: Brother, 7. hair color: brown and blonde 8. eye color: brown 9. height: 5'3 1/2"
r e l a t i o n s h i p s 1. who are your best friends?: theres more than one 2. you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: mark :*
fa s h i o n | s t u f f 1. where is your favorite place to shop: Abercrombie, Wet seal, windsor forever21, charlotte, hollister 2. any tattoos or piercings: ears pierced
s p e c i f i c s 1. do you do drugs?:No 2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: head and shoulders 3. what are you most scared of?: scary movies, knives, dyin, people i love dyin 4. what are you listening to right now? soldier 5. who is the last person that called you?: mark 6. where do you want to get married?: somewhere warm and pretty 7. how many buddies are online right now?: 24 that arnts away 8. what would you change about yourself?: hmm..lil weight other than that i am who i am..
F A V O R I T E S 1. color: pink 2. food: depends on the mood im in 3. boys names: idk? 4. girls names: idk? 5. subjects in school: english was easy ..math is cool love my teacher :P 6. animals: dog n cat
h a v e | y o u | e v e r 1. given anyone a bath?: babies mom watch 2. smoked?:mhm :x 3. bungee jumped?: nope. 4. made yourself throw up?: ew neverrr 5. skinny dipped?: Yeah. :P 6: ever been in love?: yes 7. made yourself cry to get to get out of trouble: yes =D 8. pictured your crush naked?: of courseeee ;) 9. actually seen your crush naked?: haha.. 10. cried when someone died?: yeah :/ 11. lied: I have, I dont usually 12. fallen for your best friend?: nope. 13. been rejected?: hmm..idk 14. rejected someone?: Yeah. 15. used someone?: NO i dont think so 16. done something you regret?: yeah
c u r r e n t clothes: jeans new burgundy tank black jacket music: Soldier make-up: yea its barely on nemore annoyance: umm idk waht that means smell: moonlight path desktop picture: background book youre reading: im supposed to read one for english cd in player: burned cd dvd in player: cellular
l a s t | p e r s o n you touched: brother when i slapped him hugged: caroline? you imed: hmmm... you yelled at: brother you kissed: mark of course :P
a r e | y o u understanding: Yeah open-minded: yea? arrogant: No insecure: sometimes. interesting: Yea random: people say that a lot bout me hungry: ugh no extremly full smart: yeah, 3.7 gpa :D moody: not really hard working: i suppose when i wana be organized: can be healthy: i wish i was more heathlry shy: people who dont kno me say so..people who do know me say they wish i was difficult: i can be attractive:So I've Heard. bored easily: Not realy by myself i suppose responsible: yes obsessive:not really angry: no sad:no happy:yes hyper: not at the moment trusting: yes legal?: Yes ;)
w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a kill?: some chick at my school :x slap: my brother get really wasted with?: alexa!! ha high with:lol.. talk to online: my friends
r a n d o m in the morning i am: quick love is: a beutiful thing dream about: mark :) sexual preference: men
w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r coke or pepsi: depends on my mood flowers or candy: flowers tall or short: taller than me
o p p o s i t e | s e x what do you notice first: everything gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her:huh who do you have a crush on:mark of course:P
d o | y o u | e v e r sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: YES! lol.. ive got it bad wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: sometimes when im bored i wonder wish you were younger: noo def not
N u m b e r of times i have had my heart broken: never? of hearts i have broken: hope non but maybe one :/ of guys ive kissed:... i have kissed a lot of boys but i realized that you were the one because when i kissed you i never wanted to stop... of girls ive kissed: lol wow of scars on my body: dont count but i got a scar from stiches on my forehead of things that i regret: a few
| t h o u g h t s I know: I have loving friends I have: a boyfriend I fear: losin loved ones, knivces n all that I search: on the internet? I wonder: What "he" is thinking at times
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WeLl WeLl WeLl... today was a pretty good day. Scrubbed out today. ya! wore my *RuLes ArE fOr SucKers* tee. Mr lacombe liked that :P hahaaa jpp
*1st hour* Chemistry test, most likely failed that but eh i tried *2nd hour* Nothing special *3rd hour* took picz for yearbook *4th hour* lunch did my math homeowork sameo thing *5th hour* good class watched a movie was boring made fun of slewai or w/e the whole hour lol hey the movie puts him on "the edge of his seat" *6th hour* finished watching unwed father. good movie but sad poor guy :/ cute baby tho *7th hour* ha best class with lex. took a quiz i kno i failed cuz it was hard. then we got extra hw cuz sum dumass was talkin lol so i was like yea alex ill see you after class. n mr lacombe said i have to do the hw even tho i wasnt talking. *8th hour* another quiz nonstop all day..i did good on that one even tho i skipped yesturday :x alexa n mary helped me study :) i hate mr bayer. i go to go the bathroom hes like is it emergency im like wtf is this? were not at a hospital if i gotta go pee i gotta goooo
Im Goin to the malllll todayyy :D :D with caroline ..
well i suppose ill finish any of this later since GINA insists on leaveing now to take me to the mall...
xoxo
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| HaPpY bIrThDaY tOdAy To MiSs KaTrInA KuLkA!~! |
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KaTrInA kUlKa... best friends since the 6th grade..ilu babe you always been there for me when i needed someone to talk to or anythin overall and im alwayssssss here for youuu...much love CaTSaS* (Chrissy Shelbz Kat) EwElL cReW (Alex Caroline Shelbie Katrina Christa)
Vitamin C - Graduation Song Lyrics And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of the night in June I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon And There was me and you, and then it got real blue Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and We would get so excited, we'd get so scared Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
Chorus: As we go on, we remember All the times we had together And as our lives change, from whatever We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money When we look back now, will that joke still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
*Repeat chorus*
La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
lylas catsa ss bff cb4d aaf
BeSt FrIeNdS.. ArE tHeRe 4 YoU wHeNeVeR hOwEvEr WhAtEvEr FoReVeR
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[19 Jan 2005|09:06pm] |
Tell her you think shes AMAZING. Tell her why you think shes so amazing. Talk to
her in movie theatres. Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly KISS her. Hold her
hand and walk. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand.
Pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her. Tell her she looks
BEAUTIFUL. Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''. Sit
in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and
coffee shops. Tell her stupid jokes... Whatever it takes to make her
laugh. Write poems about her. Walk with her, even if its just around the
block. Throw pebbles at her window at night. SURPRISE HER. Do things
that make her SMILE, make her LAUGH, and make her want to KISS you
right on the face. BE SPONTANEOUS.. When she
starts yelling at you, tell her you love
her. Give her back rubs. Play football with her. Let her fall
asleep in your arms. Call her even if its just to say hi. Call her back if
she calls you. Jump on the bed with her. Whisper in her ear. Sing to
her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Get her
mad, then KISS her. Push her on swings. Stay up with her all
night. Leave her little unexpected notes.. on the car, or on her door, saying how
much she means to you. Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look
at the *stars*. Make up nicknames for each other. Send flowers and dorky
notes that only you two understand. Teach her guitar. . Make her cds of
songs that remind you of her. Write her letters. If she asks you to go
to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip. Go on a road
trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long. Listen to her
favorite songs. When shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on
the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything. Buy her ice cream.
Let her take all the pictures of you SHE WANTS. Look into
her eyes. Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. Make her a
romantic dinner for special days. Remember dates.. even ones like your
first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary. Kiss her in
the rain. Kiss her when she least expects it. When
YOU fall n love with her, TELL HER!!
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somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework..... and the incessant forwards..... and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!...... Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends..... And the "I miss you's", the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w ee n all of the changing,growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests.......And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I forgot.......... I forgot what high school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry....... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart ............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.......... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crap......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means taking chances........ I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things.And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today..... So this is a thank you to all of my friends. . For always being there. And even if were not on good terms or we have lost touch... I still care for you.. ~Always and forever love all you guys!~
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